Well, if you're my friend on facebook then you already know my big news :) (and what one of those doctor's appointments today was for!)
Baby #3 (eeeek!) is due on April 16, 2012!!! It's been so hard to blog in the past few weeks, knowing this big news but not really being ready to share it with the world :) Which is why I honestly just didn't really blog.... I felt so dishonest... haha.
We were totally surprised by this pregnancy! But we know that this life is ordained by God and it certainly was no surprise to Him! I can hardly believe there is yet another life inside my womb. Life is such a miracle... such a gift. It isn't given lightly.
I had thought I was due on April 22, but the ultrasound showed baby due on the 16th... a full week earlier than I had calculated! It's kind of nice to just sort of "skip" a week ;) Baby looks so beautiful! With my first 2, I had the initial ultrasound around 7 weeks, and baby always looks mostly like an oval at that point, so to see this baby was such a pleasant surprise for me. This baby truly looks like a baby! Seeing his or her little head and body was miraculous! I'm so blessed.
I've been REALLY nauseous this time around. Much more than with the first 2. Ick. Even as I'm writing this I'm so ready to just run to the bathroom! Still no puking, (thank God!) but just constant wanting to. Ugh. But God keeps reminding me... what's a little nausea compared to LIFE?! nothing, that's what!
I can't believe I'm jumping back into this world of pregnancy! With a 2 year old and 9 month old in tow. Whew, what a crazy life, huh?!
You know, on my way to my appointment today, God did such a work in my heart. I've been so shocked by this pregnancy and at times I've felt so overwhelmed by this new reality. But today, as I drove to the doctor (alone in the car... ahhhh.... kids were with Grandma!) God spoke to me in volumes. I was listening to the song "Beautiful Grace" by Tommee Proffitt and I just felt like I was falling in love with Jesus all over again. I was reminded of the BIG picture....and the fact that even if having 3 kids will be the most difficult thing I've ever done.... and even if I'm exhausted and nauseous while chasing around 2 little ones....and even if I cry some days because I feel like I'm drowning... what God is doing is SO MUCH BIGGER.
When Mary conceived Jesus by the power of the Holy Spirit, her reputation became crap. She was viewed as unfaithful, an adulteress and fornicator. She was questioned by her fiance. She was probably defamed, made fun of, and whispered about. But God's plan was SO much more important than all of that. She was probably so uncomfortable as she rode, 9 months pregnant, on the back of a donkey through the rough terrain. She was probably SUPER uncomfortable giving birth in a smelly stable.... but God's plan was BIGGER. His ways are HIGHER than our WAYS. His thoughts, than our thoughts. HE knows the big picture, which is why we have to trust Him even in our uncertainty.
How dare I feel as though it's an inconvenient time to get pregnant.
life is never an incovenience.
it is always, only, ever a BLESSING.
the fulfillment of a dream in God's heart to create another worshiper to glorify Himself.
life is beautiful.
life is precious.
life is a gift.
How blessed am I to carry it inside my own body?