16.4.12

Just so you know, Part 2 will be delayed.

A few people have asked me when I'm going to post part 2 of Hunter's story. I have to be honest with you and say, I'm not sure when.

What I will say is that Hunter was able to leave the NICU and come home to us on March 28th-- 13 days after he was born. I want to say thank you all for the continued prayers, love and support you extended to us during such a dark time. Hunter is thriving at home, and is gaining weight even faster than his doctors had hoped! He is a happy and content little one month old :) Looking at his perfect little face you'd never know what he's been through already.

The reason I'm not posting part 2 just yet, is because since Hunter has been released from the NICU, our home has been filled with more laughter, joy, contentment and peace than we have had in a while. Each time I sat down at my computer to type out the darkest moments of our journey, I simply couldn't face the sadness. It's not a tempting choice to face all that pain when you're standing in a place of so much happiness. Does that make sense? Hunter's time in the NICU was the hardest thing we've been through. We dealt with possibilities that we've never even before had to think about. We dealt with emotions that we hadn't even dreamt up in our worst nightmares. The scary reality of possibly losing a child was so painful, that frankly, I'm just not ready to re-live it all.

So for now, I want to let you into the joyful part of Hunter's life rather than the painful part. One day I will type it out... mainly because I do want Hunter to one day know in full the road he's walked and the amazing things God has done for him and through him already. But for now, I want to dwell in this place of happiness and remarkable gratitude. Because this is how we face Hunter's life.


5 Comments:

marysol said...

Totally understand! This is why even 20 months later I haven't written E's birth story and NICU stay.

Tara Hills said...

Thank you for sharing at all Claire. You'll know when you are and God will get all the glory for taking you through that storm. It took me weeks before I was ready to journal Bo's birth and our first experience with a child in NICU. If it's something you wish to read, there may be some balm or insight that is of some help to you as you process that tender time. But for now, we rejoice with you as you rejoice in the heightened joy, love and peace that is yours in greater measures now. Give all the little ones a kiss from us.

Emily grapes said...

Awwww, what a doll. I'm sooo glad you posted. I've been thinking about you like crazy wondering if everything was ok, and I'm so thankful to see that it is! And even more than ok!!

Enjoy your precious family!!
Emily at Amazing Grapes

Natalie said...

Awww what a cutie and so glad he is doing so great!

Kristin said...

I am so glad your house is filled with Joy. You have a amazing family. I think that is a great reason not to write about his time in the hospital. God is so good I am glad your son is a strong healthy baby.