It's a brand new year.
Last year I was inspired by Only a Breath to join her One Word movement. My one word for 2012 was Increase. Hopefully I'll find time to sit and do a review of 2012 post soon, but for now I want to focus on my one word for 2013.
I'm excited about this year's word.
It came to me during a prayer and worship time in my room. I was listening to new worship music and found the song "Beautiful Mercy" by Laura Hackett. (which I referenced in my last blog post). As I was singing that song back throughout the next couple of days, I kept going back to the one line that I quoted in my last post... "You brought me to the wilderness where I will learn to sing, you let me know my barrenness so I will learn to lean." And it struck me. This needs to be a year of leaning. A year of leaning into the Lord and pressing into Him. I need him so desperately. 2012 wasn't my easiest year. I not only nearly lost my new son's life in March but I also lost our baby in November. It was such a deeply difficult year. BUT in the midst of tragedy, I have found a deeper, stronger relationship with Christ. I truly feel as though in 2013, I am going to need to lean in. I feel it is urgent that I lean in so closely to Christ that I become intertwined with Him again. In the busyness of life and raising my children and keeping my home it is easy to just make Him just another part of the day. But I want so much more than that. I want to be leaning into Him so fully that He envelopes EVERY part of my day. I have a list of Godly inspirational books I want to read and the Bible tops the list. I want to kick my quiet time up a few million notches and I want to leave the prayer room live on constant play during my day. I want to not only lean into Christ myself, but I want my kids to also. I want to create an atmosphere of worship and leaning in my home.
I am so looking forward to what this year will bring. Leaning into Christ can only bear beautiful fruit in my heart and life. I am ready to lean in and know Him more. He has captivated me all over again and I am longing to find myself in Him. I am so thankful for the places He has brought me and for the hope and truth that He has never abandoned me. Even in brokenness, even in grief... He's been right there. I am so thankful He has given me a new year. I am so ready to lean in.