Well, look at me. I already have missed a couple days of the Blog Every Day in May challenge. But since you all already knew that would happen, I guess I won't apologize ;) I'll probably miss a few more too because my dear Mommy is coming to visit this month! So I, of course, will be busy loving on her and enjoying her company and blogging will probably take another notch down on the totem pole.
Day 7, Tuesday: The thing(s) you're most afraid of
I think there's one thing that we're all universally most afraid of. (I think) and that's losing a loved one. That's something that I definitely think of often, and I imagine we all do. BUT since I don't love to dwell on the darkest parts of my fears, I'm going to go with a little bit more of a silly fear of mine.... but still a very, very valid fear in my life.
I am very afraid of throwing up.
Please, stop laughing.
No really, stop.
I genuinely am terrified of throwing up. Flu season is an all out terror for me. Any mention at a mom's group of another family having been ill the week before will literally send me running to my hand sanitizer stash. I freakishly wash my kids hands with soap and HOT water after any time spent in a nursery or play group. I am OCD about fully cooking meat and handling raw meat, etc. And I refuse to eat at any hole-in-the-wall restaurant I think may give me food poisoning. I'm really not sure what it is about throwing up that I hate so much, but I just hate it. Not just hate it though... FEAR it. Literally fear it. If I hear my kids make any sound even remotely similar to throwing up in the night, I get clammy.
I will say that thankfully my momma instincts have kicked in very well each time my kids have been sick and I've been able to step up and care for them as they've needed... but those have been my more challenging mommy moments for sure.
So go ahead, laugh at me. I know it's silly. But it really is a true fear for me. As in, it keeps me up at night often. I really have prayed about it a lot and I will continue too. So as silly as it is, it's a true fear.
Well, I feel awkwardly transparent now!!! But there you have it. :)